Ego.

Is this a good or a bad thing?

It great for those that have low self esteem to have some ego, but it annoying for those that think to highly of themselves. Well im sure you know that already.....

Do you think that it is possible that if someone says they don't like you, but secretly do because of there ego is too high that they can't just go down to a standard to say they do.... The past few weeks i have constant thoughts in my mind that if someone still likes another but can't let go of themselves or people around them and their thoughts doesn't this in fact hurt them selves, the thought of not allowing them to give themselves a chance.

Sometime in life you should swallow your pride to allow yourself a chance. A chance maybe to be happier and shouldn't really care of the existing thoughts from other people. As long as your happy with your decision and let that part of yourself go i am sure you find happiness.

P.S: The Valentine Giveaway ends on feb 7th. Enter Now.

CMPang x

3 years.

3 years of love, 3 years of silence.

sweet melody dwells with my emotions.

the thought of him just tingles a smile,

flash backs of memories of the existence of love.

the silence of my heart screaming those 3 words.

why do human never realise something important until it gone?

CMPang x

CNY.

Happy Chinese New Year 2012,

Dear Readers,

Hoping this year will fulfil your wishes & dreams.
bringing health, wealth, happiness & success (:

Hope everyone, if have resolution be able to stick by them.
Hope you all have an happy day, and live each day to the fullest with no regrets.

CMPang x

Artificial Relationship

WHAT!

An feeling towards someone that is unreal but you enjoy being around, to the point that when you have to leave you cant resist but to stay. This can be acting fake around someone to gain someone trust, to gain friends or maybe because your lonely trying to be compatible with people you want to blend with.

Social network creates artificial relationship between people, be serious who is going to actually know over 1000 friends and understand their personality or even remember their names. People these days are hooked in social networking website and basing it around reality. Please get back to reality, as those feeling of them people asking you questions and assuming they care about you, honestly probably 1 in 10 of your 1000 friends will.

However in my opinion the worst type of artificial relationship, is people using people in a relationships/friendship, in order to gain popularity? money? power?. It actually shows how scary these people are, how much effort they will spend to do such things, in order to gain success.

Sooo...

Be grateful for your real friends around you

cherish people that you are with. (:

CMPang x

Anniversary.

What does this day mean to you?

Anniversary is a date of a memorable day, the start of a relationship, the day you got engaged, the day you got married or a death of someone special..

However on this precise day what do couples get up to?

I find it really sweet when couples retrace their moments of what they done when they first dated, or finding new idea's to impress their partners. Personally what i find is really sweet is grabbing a starbucks, and chitchat and retrace the memorable times you had together that makes the two of them today. As something simple can be worth more than getting each other gifts, or going to some where grand. It spending time with each other that counts (:

Another idea is taking a trip abroad, a get away from the busy social life that you may have. A trip that can make the two bond even more. through this may be able to understand each other even more. A romantic getaway in a place such as Paris, Venice, Rome or an place that you both never visit.. an adventure a change can be great for a relationship.....

Whatever is done on your anniversary,
the most important is just being together.

CMPang x

BOOM.

reality hits you... when you love someone and that person doesn't feel the same.

what should you do?

Learning to let go, learning that it maybe the better option to let that person loose. instead of being persistant in wanting that person to stay by you, wanting that person to be with you every step of the way... just letting go of that person, this maybe the best option for both of you..if it is meant to be maybe one day it would..

as i learnt that letting someone go, doesn't mean you love them less or more..it is what the best for both of you, allowing each other with more opportunities in life..not to corner them off with one choice. not to let them think that this is how it suppose to be.

Even if you think it best for you, even if you think it best for them... the safe option is let loose, even if that person say that your the person that they loved the most, but for others some certain words get your sensitive side, such as 'rather die than be with you'... even so that doesn't change your opinion, it may change their heart to move on to another person. if you love that person you should allow them to pursue their happiness and be happy for them. after all sometime love can be pointed in many direction.. and this maybe the most beneficial way..

love, it can be something that you wish for you want to earn.

but in the end fate or reality decide for it self.

no result.

have you ever experienced liking someone, but at the end either of you know the end result...
liking that someone, experiencing new concept of romance, unexpected feeling and at the end falling more deeply for that person than expected. Are these things under yourself control or was it just something that you may long to do as that feeling hasn't existed before, or yet you longed for that feeling for a while..

have you experience when two liking each other but is restricted by time, but within a short period of time the relation developed however both knew the result and in the end so won't start. knowing the end result yet carrying on further with the relation, thinking at the end it be okay as the time was spent was short and be easily faded, but that where everything begins.where trying to let the feeling fade, hurt to just reminiscence the feeling..

As at the end you know that everything is confined by distance.

Chance.

In your life how many chances do you have?



one, two, three.... and so forth.

i wish that i had that chance that we could be, yet all i know we are just strangers...
if there is if, i want that chance for forgiveness to experience the wonders of life again
my brain cells are dying just to think of the words you expressed...
as each tear drip seeing our photos made me realize that i'm still living in the past,
not letting go, not moving on. have i just stayed to them days have i matured or is this a lie..

i want my happiness back, i want to believe that i can do this....
i loved you and i still do...you say i'm making a fool out of myself.
but loving someone is it really a foolish thing to do?
happiness is placed at the palm of your hand, all you want to do is grasp it and not let go..
a chance to remember what we have, a chance to embrace that we loved.
as in this world it is hard to find someone that love each other...
as i remember the words you said..

' you loved me the most yet hate me the most'
' i rather die than be with you'

if only just my heart will believe this....
as i know that i won't give up. if i wasn't that stubborn.

if... if... if...
i didn't take them chances for granted.

Far Far Away....

Letting Go,


is a subject that is something that can be simple or hard....on so many complex level this can deteriorate your body,your mind and soul. There is only two option carrying on pursuing or actually letting go....

This can relate to relationship, friends and loved one that past away...
either way how do you carry on?

Relationship comes across too me as something that can be simple, it makes me feel so oblivious to many things. You can become so stubborn thinking that this person is the person that you will never let go especially when you love that person. At the end you may come to many conclusion maybe that love was not meant to be, maybe that you just keep reminiscing, or maybe that this person actually meant the world to you that you couldn't let go and is placed in a high place in your heart.....

As for a loved one that passed away, this can be the most difficult thing as you may contain full of guilt... asking question why can't you spend more time for that person. maybe why is it unfair that they give this type of fate to that person, either way memories contain all the happiness....

I guess though at the end of the day their isn't a perfect person without flaws, there is always a chance in trying to let go... but if it really hurts you can only hold some percentage and try and move on. as you will know memories are always forever.....

never erased. as we don't have a delete button.

Thoughts.....

Dear Mind..

Can you tell me why do you give me flash backs, the thoughts of me and him that exist that will continue to cluster my braincells..giving me illusions .. i wish to stop this business. however it gives me thrills to know that we was one... Mind? can i ask you what this suppose to mean it has been years from now and you fulfil my mind with happiness...till this day mind if you are real and what i think of can be true... I will thank you?

i know that i still love you....

Wishing that we can be....

CMPang

One sided.

Have you ever experienced this before?

Have you ever liked someone, but that person doesn't like you, or even doesn't know.... i'm sure that many people have experienced this before or at least once in their lifetime. if not then i'm considered that these people are very lucky. Liking someone maybe one of the happiness or saddest feeling to come across.

When liking someone you, you may go to the extreme for that person you will care with all your heart, to protect that person from getting hurt, or even try lecture that person to help them define what right or wrong when you know that they may have made wrong decisions. Of course what you do may not turn the clocks around and that person will like you, but you do what your heart tells you and don't expect anything in return.

Liking someone that doesn't like you may be the most painful feeling, worse than breaking out of a relationship. As at the end of the day you are hurting yourself, whilst trying to pursue your own happiness without interfering theirs. As i said pursue your own happiness, as happiness you may can grasp in your palm of your hands if you try hardest.

Complex right?

however if you are liking someone and that person doesn't know, my opinions are i will let that person know and see through with the results, if it doesn't work you may try and persist again. but at the end of the day you can say you have tried, as things that you haven't try you wouldn't know the results and sometime results may turn out better than expected.

As happiness is something you gain yourself.

over you yet?

a song for those...

P.S im still not over you..

Trying again?

what would you do to gain someone trust?

gaining someone trust is hard, especially when you broke it... a topic that i came across recently is people wanting to get back with their ex's. Gaining an Ex's trust is can be straightforward or complex, it will cost you an arm and a leg to gain trust from your Ex's? each step takes patient and effort to let your past understand that you have changed....

Trying again - If i was anyone i will ask myself what makes you want to be back with your Ex's, as to me is at all cost and all means, if you want to get back with your significant other... you should let down your mask, express to the other half your feeling. however things that should be avoided is telling that you love them over and over again, telling that you have changed, acting depressed or being manipulative. off course these tricks may work but it just shows that your acting on one sided view...

Trying again really means?
Well you should ask yourself would the relationship be genuine?
What type of relationship would it be and how long would it last?

Are you willing to be patient at beginning gaining the trust?

If you having a dilemma, thinking should you risk it...in my opinion i would say yes there is no harm in trying to get back with someone you love. As at the end if you are rejected you can say at least you try to gain..

after all it hard to find someone that love each other in this world.

你認識愛嗎?

鐘意﹐喜歡﹐好感 你會點分?

我個人覺得’愛‘係呢個世界已經係一個好兒戲件事或者一個字。 我覺得好多人都唔係好識分別以上D感覺? 因為大部 分人都以為呢幾個字如果有那種感覺已經就是愛﹐ 但我覺得呢D都唔係愛 。 我不是一個愛情專家 但係我心目中嘅愛不是那咁樣嘅感覺。

但係呢個年代D 人(講到自己好老) 哈哈!﹐ 就以為開始一個relationship就係代表愛一個人?有時D人無真正了解一個人﹐ 就同人一齊。 但是我覺得你經要過呢D階段先去到愛一個人。


但係愛有幾多種?
或者你以為離開一個人到代表你愛一個人?
或者係你可以遠距離咁愛一個人?

最重要你要愛你自己先愛一個人。

update later. (:

Strangers.

....This video made me think, it been too long now.

Relationship.

What defines a relationship?

This is an subject that takes ages to acknowledge and understanding.

in society many people come across different types of relationship.

as me relationship between friends? family? and your other half.

what actually defines a relationship in my opinion?

a relationship with anyone, i feel that you shouldn't expect anyone to be responsible for your happiness, as you have to accept yourself and pursue what you think is right. As i believe love yourself first before loving others...life is that selfish? yes it is.

Relationship has different forms I feel that these sentence conceal it in my opinion.

"You know when your in one, as the two are the creator of your own world"

"Developing feeling, creating a vision of what is love"

"Describing Love is equivlient to 1000 emotions"

have you ever looked back and regretted a relationship?

never regret anything that happened, never allow hatred to appear.

as through out a relationship will make you understand and grow.

understanding where you went wrong within that relationship

and the next you will be do better for the next.....

Hate - is a word that i doubt i will use in my life, it takes far to much effort to hate someone than to forgive, hating someone is remembering what that person once did, forgiving is allowing yourself another option to choose what to do.......

Love - This word i will use to my close friends and family, and if so my partner. Love isn't what it means anymore... you can love someone in a 1000 ways but to each person it differs, Love is something you know and feel when the time is right.....understanding is the main key of love...