Ego.

Is this a good or a bad thing?

It great for those that have low self esteem to have some ego, but it annoying for those that think to highly of themselves. Well im sure you know that already.....

Do you think that it is possible that if someone says they don't like you, but secretly do because of there ego is too high that they can't just go down to a standard to say they do.... The past few weeks i have constant thoughts in my mind that if someone still likes another but can't let go of themselves or people around them and their thoughts doesn't this in fact hurt them selves, the thought of not allowing them to give themselves a chance.

Sometime in life you should swallow your pride to allow yourself a chance. A chance maybe to be happier and shouldn't really care of the existing thoughts from other people. As long as your happy with your decision and let that part of yourself go i am sure you find happiness.

P.S: The Valentine Giveaway ends on feb 7th. Enter Now.

CMPang x

3 years.

3 years of love, 3 years of silence.

sweet melody dwells with my emotions.

the thought of him just tingles a smile,

flash backs of memories of the existence of love.

the silence of my heart screaming those 3 words.

why do human never realise something important until it gone?

CMPang x

Left or Right.

in life you either turn left or right

What if i told you if you take a left route on your next journey you will find what you wish for but this also comes with one challenge, however it you take the right turn this will be potential new beginning where you find more than a pot of gold but you will loose something important..

which route will you take?

maybe to some easy option is taking the right route be the easy option, however this in life means that you will not fight for what you wish or dreams. however in my case it is so much more rewarding to fight for something you dream or longing to want and accept any challenges along the way....

In life i see many people give up far to easily and stop pursing their dreams. Be more optimistic and take an adventure and stick to a challenge and at the end it maybe more rewarding than just jumping next to another option. A phrase in chinese 'Don't be half a bucket of water' in things you do.. if you want to do something pursue with an open mind... allowing you broaden and experience more...

Year older.

BIRTHDAYS..

Hitting the 20 mark, i yet still feel young -O-"

However this year i have felt lucky and blessed to have my close friend to fly all the way from England and surprise me for my birthday which lead to me into tears, and another friend that gave me a shock of my life appearing at my doorstep with his luggage to spend my birthday with me.

This year i didn't intend to celebrate my birthday or do anything special as i felt it wasn't anything special or a need to... but these few people made it so special for me and a memorable birthday, it felt like someone was listening to my wishes...

BOOM.

reality hits you... when you love someone and that person doesn't feel the same.

what should you do?

Learning to let go, learning that it maybe the better option to let that person loose. instead of being persistant in wanting that person to stay by you, wanting that person to be with you every step of the way... just letting go of that person, this maybe the best option for both of you..if it is meant to be maybe one day it would..

as i learnt that letting someone go, doesn't mean you love them less or more..it is what the best for both of you, allowing each other with more opportunities in life..not to corner them off with one choice. not to let them think that this is how it suppose to be.

Even if you think it best for you, even if you think it best for them... the safe option is let loose, even if that person say that your the person that they loved the most, but for others some certain words get your sensitive side, such as 'rather die than be with you'... even so that doesn't change your opinion, it may change their heart to move on to another person. if you love that person you should allow them to pursue their happiness and be happy for them. after all sometime love can be pointed in many direction.. and this maybe the most beneficial way..

love, it can be something that you wish for you want to earn.

but in the end fate or reality decide for it self.

Readers.

I write blogs too express my emotions and feeling,
not for people to judge on my characteristic and personality.
Maybe you perceive me as a stubborn/arrogant person....
but this is life if you don't persist on something you may loose it all..
as long as your heart pumping you still have a chance.

Winning.

Money, we all love it don't deny...

to bad majority when birth don't hold a golden key to success, a golden key that will give you ultimate wealth etc, i find that these days money has become an issue, people are becoming more and more materialistic. The thing that annoys me is when someone have a product/technology etc, another see's and envy's and goes to their length to get the exact same product or a better version. with money there is always a competition, to become more wealthy or may become famous to be known with the person that may have everything.

How to find it?

Finding money is what we live for, and what we are trained for we study, we work and then the money is placed towards how we live and the extra is how we use it to indulge in your favoriate things such as travelling on holiday, buying things, spending on food etc. I found that materialistic people will get out of their way such as placing bids on bet, casino and work, with this there is always an danger to getting addictive to casino etc....

But is having everything exactly beneficial to you?

I won't lie, i like money but i know for a fact that it won't buy you a life time of happiness or love, it can only place a smile on your face but the time is limitless like a bomb, as soon as that feeling is over many will want to save up or want newer items to their collections. bringing on to the topic of collections, collections can sometime be a B!TCH that how we all want to use our money to add to a certain of collections to girls it can be bags, shoes, makeup? guys - clothing, cars and technology either way using money, to compete and get the best....

in general, i wonder what people think of money? it is an essential of every day life. but what would you spend it on, using it to feed your guilty pleasures or to use it realistically. but then again we all wish that we have a money tree in our back yard (: ....

University

3 years of uni is this enough?

education, makes me think has it got the better of me...or worse

as soon as people move on an adapt to uni life, everything before seems such a mystery? the friends you had the people you hang around with, seem so different now. Is uni suppose to be like this? changing your friendship groups, because soon as you move away to another city you adapt to the place, meet new friends and sometime people forget about the ones before.

As i realised heading back to my own city, i have so little reason to go out meeting my 'friends' as everyone has changed and adapted to a new lifestyle, each time i go back it seems that many people have made new friendship groups.

it is true that year by year you become distant to your previous friends, and you move on... is this acceptable? as i realised now that my previous friends, as harsh as it sound is irrelevant to my lifestyle now and sometime just don't need them... meaning? were there friends at all...

all i can say is we had good times. but it ends there.

comfort zone.

What is your comfort zone, where does this end?

revisiting my old blog, i was put out of my comfort zone haven't visited it since 3 years ago. Just couple weeks ago re-reading my old blog i realised how much memories and effort i placed into each post.

posting blog doesn't only jots what you done that day but your feelings towards certain issues.
however as i said placed me out of my comfort zone, the memories did belong to me but the people i mentioned in my blog are distance from me. people change and mature about certain issue, reading my blog i realised that how much people change....

comfort zone doesn't only mean the people you are with, the place you are at but even reading certain things can make you feel awkward and sadden. although i do miss the innocent me that didn't know much, and it is true what i wrote previously on my post when i look back i will know how silly i was. i am happy to say that blogging is an efficient way of jotting down your feeling and it something to look back on for future reference to see how you developed to see how you changed to someone maybe better or worst? but this is all down to opinion and your own judgement of life.

Dosage of life?

medicine of reality. have you taken your dosage?

Treasure and cherish everything that happened with your close one, as year by year there are people that will leave and enter their new reality. it part of growing up it part of nature, however what hit me recently is DAM people change so quickly, is it a mask? how people can turn from hot to cold, how people can be so out of the ordinary. is it because their afraid of their reality.

i wish their was a medicine that will just show people their true colours.

childhood.

what did you do ?

It amazes me how our childhood till now is just so different, how such little thing when we was young we found entertaining. As we can continue playing the same game or watch the same program, and wouldn't get bored.. but now? it so different...who didn't younger play tag, hide and seek, board games, skipping rope, hopscotch, playing with sand, building Lego, domino, card games.... etc

it funny now i said that, technology has impacted us in each way of our lives. as sometime i think how a simple life would be, as today came back from a road trip and got into an area. with no service on my phone for a at least 40 minutes. i was literally on the verge to getting angry, but technology/electronic devices sometime made us this way, or is it the internet?

i wonder if anyone can live without your phone/laptop/pc for a day?

as for me both of these devices are my life. i wonder if anyone will rise to this challenge, maybe when i'm in Hong Kong, ask my friend to challenge me.... it would be interesting.

Time.

a word? a sentence? a paragraph? a chapter of life.

as you grow older time becomes a precious part of you.

BUT what if the tic, comes to an end?

what is the things you would do?

In life you will face through difficult times, you feel that life is impossible.

but when you take a step back. set a chart, set a target you know that time isn't an issue.

it is a guidance, it is something that will help you grow and widen your knowledge.

time is something to help you find your own identity and understand yourself more.

through each time period, you soon to realise that within a space time many things can change....

Time is a piece of art, created by you.

Holding Grudges...

Why hold grudges?

Holding grudge is normally associate with hating or no purpose at all, but i actually don't approve of hating someone as it takes more effort to do such a thing...I find it quite immature to hold grudges, and people that hold grudges normally believe that they will be in less pain by avoiding as they think that they are protected if there not contacting the individual. however i feel that when holding grudges doesn't actually help, in fact it may harm and hurt them than it helps them.

Why i came across this topic is i recently got in touch with my a person that i will classify as friend till this day, but that person said to me don't bother contact them. i actually pity this friend, holding such a grudge is cutting communication from me and also giving no chance to resolve the problem and it worsen the situation..but till this day now, it been 3 years.

Please... life too short to be involving so much hatred in their life for a long time.
life shouldn't be held at a point, people make mistakes...
when a person try to explain..

stop. listen.think.forgive (or at least try).

Blogging...

Has it become part of my life? Yes. Why? It become an habit

seriously?

To be honest i haven't got a clue what i blog about, I just do. Maybe it is to pass time and share my thoughts, i do acknowledge that their are many people viewing from different places/countries... i find it quite amusing...blogging has become part of my life, i have blogged since 2004 initially my thoughts was to write an online diary as pen and paper doesn't seem appealing to me..

looking back?

For those who are bloggers, i'm sure you do it look back your post and reminiscence the time.. how things improve or worsen..i find it is a genuine thing. When re-reading my post it gives me a warm feeling that i have changed from previous the way i type and to what i type, all i can say is i laugh at my life.. and simple things can be the one thing that place a smile on my face.

Past : This is all memory
Present: The past who made me where i am now
Future: This is where i look to for hope

i ask myself recently, what is my blogs about?

ANSWER: ANYTHING & EVERYTHING.

Age.

Does age define your maturity?

a topic that has been discussed among my friends recently.... two people the same age yet can react differently towards many things. I feel age isn't the matter, maturity doesn't come with age (maybe physical changes) it comes from experience in life. However problems occurs when you are same age as the other and your maturity level is much higher than theirs does that make you feel old? or sound smarter than they are.. or maybe even big headed as it may seem you know everything... my answer is unknown.. it all due down to experience.

Personality.

"Impact in life does not affect your personality..."

this is my reply :

Impact in life not only affect your personality it also affect characteristic.. as for myself throughout these years i have tried many ways to improve myself. the simple things from what action i take i must rethink what happens, and i have learnt to be much more straight forward to people towards things i don't like as this sometime come across as mean and arrogant but sometime must be said...changes however in my life didn't happen in a day or two, it happens as you mature and endure what happens in reality. As we mature changes are happening and impact in life does affect your personality, as you will perceive and intake things in different ways and way you express yourself will change...

My opinions of life - Cherish.Treasure life... have time to reflect on yourself and evaluate once in a while if you are really doing the right thing...

Friends.

..this can become an sensitive topic but this is interesting what people think and even though many people say they don't categorise their friends but sub-consciously they are,, as there can be formed with many category such as "hi-bye friends" and "Good friends".

Do you categorise your friends?

YES. I DO.

Reason why i do so is because in this world you are guarantee that not everyone you meet you will like, and not everyone can be your close friend. I select and choose friends as this sounds harsh and the amount of arrogance there are in these sentence you do want a good friend that you can trust and look back and say "reminiscence of the good times"....as close friends will always stick by you where as others wouldn't..

Friend Definition.

Hi-Bye Friend : These friends are people that you will walk passed and say hi/bye? simple enough.

Uni Friends : These are only when you need help in academic areas who you will go to

Sole Friends : Someone that is similar to you that can place your life too.

Social Network Friend : Based online that you won't normally see on a daily basis exception the internet.

Using Friends : when some friend use other to get where they want.

note: there many category that can be listed, however not one friend can be based on one category it can be a mixture of many...

To be fair....

in life you will come across different type of personality and characteristic, good and the bad my general words are be selective and be careful...as socialising is in our nature and you will meet and greet some but each person that does come along just respect opinions and facts.. if not the right friend there no need to mock or hate... just leave and ignore :)

Imperfection.

Social Network website isn't reality.

you can be superior all you like.

you can use words to get other people down.

but at the end of the day i wonder who actually cares?

recently i came across the questions that was asked by annoyomous on my formspring, it showed hatred but what does this person gain... typing such things doesn't really put me down, instead it gives myself a power & motivation to do better than others that are out their that are set out put me down.

i find it funny how people are set out their to destroy other image? saying how bad, how imperfect him/her is am but not caring about personailty? some people these days are becoming really shallow. only seeing through images and judging what type of person they are, and not understanding them. we all human? who wants to be talked about? we all have feeling?

everyone has their imperfection, so why judge others? work on your own first..